the person who said that was a stranger on the train from York to Derby yesterday.

she actually said 25, to one of the really wasted guys who where going "hah-he-hah-he" through the ride. you know, the sound of your wet finger rubbing against shiny plastic surfaces? those guys were spraying gatorade on each other on the platform and i prayed that they're not going to end up in my coach. well obviously i didn't pray hard enough.

when we stopped at Leeds this chubby lady came aboard and sat right next to one of them.

"i'm gonna have to move all the way to the silent coach if you guys keep doing this," she said, minutes after. the "hah-he" and some thigh slimming exercise out of the blue. A pretty girly girl who too boarded there, was seated across the table with me. and the guy was staring at her collar and belt everytime i looked up from my book. entirely sick. it was when the dudes start losing it that the chubby lady popped the question.

"what have you achieved in your 25 years?"
that is after asking how old they were of course.

"confidence" he answered.
(you bet mate.)

however annoying they were, the guy reached forward to kiss the chubby lady goodbye at the next calling.English people sure know how to put on a show.

nice move, i thought.
confidence indeed. as well as something i can never do this life. hats off to ms. chubby.

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so
what have i achieved in my (almost) 20 years?

this. which i'm definitely putting to use in my career no matter how bumpy the ride
friends who genuinely care, to bug me off dreading before i start
an intense and also very genuine fear for all animals alike (recent top phobia, ducks. thanks to York)
girlfriends who judge me when i needed them to, and shut up when they read it off my face
2 ex-boyfriends. who both got themselves another someone with apparently no eyebrows (ahh!)
self-discipline. which sometimes make me the daddy's little girl i hate.

and what i need to become

is a better listener
a more self-assured empowered young lady
university graduate with first honours (yes the girls needs to achieve sth solid after falling flat on her face)

oh and guess what, having the ones she loves to love her
means losing her eyebrows

single
proudly single